12.31.2010

the more time passes,

the more i pass time,

thinking about its lapse.

12.29.2010

i try to plan accordingly,

but things never seem to go

according to plan.

12.28.2010

the cold howled through my bones,

finding a home in the marrow,

the chill in my spine.

12.27.2010

the time for tension is long gone,

i've got to leave that all behind me.

i'm past tense.

12.26.2010

right now everything is beautiful.

after the snow settles,

they'll say it was a storm.

12.25.2010

'tis the season

for everyone to remember

why the family doesn't get together regularly.

12.24.2010

a rotted tickle-me-elmo

clawed outside scrooge's door.

it was the ghost of christmas presents past.

12.23.2010

the weatherman calls for thunderstorms,

but only the clouds hold the truth.

if it rains, we will dance wet.

12.22.2010

i liked the world better

when every problem's solution

was just a commercial break away.

12.21.2010

the woods had overrun the drive-in theater,

i couldn't see the forrest gump

through the trees.

12.20.2010

if it's a tragedy

but no one dies,

then it's a comedy, right?

12.19.2010

sometimes i feel like an idiot.

i didn't know growing up

meant i'd be a dolt.

12.18.2010

12.17.2010

i'd bang my head bloody

if it would get my thoughts out,

dripping onto paper, painful.

12.16.2010

a compliment uttered,

not willingly met

by rolling eyes.

12.15.2010

in my heart is the doors,

in yours is linkin park,

i guess that's why we're better off apart.

12.14.2010

i will scream until everyone hears

my vocal cords tearing at the seams,

a lost voice waiting to be found.

12.13.2010

some vows, once broken,

cannot be regained.

a shattered ring in want of soldering.

12.12.2010

head swirling cinnamon,

saccharine scents sending

my senses into submission.

12.11.2010

no words flowing freely,

stunned by the silence inflicted

by a look.

12.10.2010

i asked if we could talk about it,

you said the time for talk had passed.

better late, then never.

12.09.2010

out in the open, naked.

we, the consenting majority,

giving our lives to strangers.

12.08.2010

i squeezed as hard as i could

my hands turning white, then blue,

but the rock gave no water.

12.07.2010

our lives run parallel, perfect.

never getting any closer,

never intersecting.

12.06.2010

bending, winding, twisting,

matching bodies intertwined.

sin, you, us.

12.05.2010

you (locked

[compartments, separating rations

of emotions] away) and i.

12.04.2010

i keep getting thrown curveballs,

i need to changeup.

life keeps breaking my balls.

12.03.2010

i tried to ignore

the voices in my head,

but i couldn't in good conscience.

12.02.2010

i had a fist full of fool's gold and a grin full of teeth.

when i thought myself rich,

the truth of poverty evaded me.

12.01.2010

i don't suffer night terrors,

but i imagine if i did,

i'd still wake up alone.